Montag, 31. Januar 2011

There's a leak...

..of the new Bright Eyes record "The People's Key". But I, heroic as I am, told myself I will wait at least until Feb 1st when I will receive my official download link from Saddle Creek. But right now I hate it to be patient..for this purpose I need some Non-Bright Eyes music.


Donnerstag, 27. Januar 2011

Ice Water.

I am so, angry.
I am so, at ease.
I feel just like some great big disease.
I think you need ice water.
But the only thing that you really hate,
Is all it's emptiness.
Ah, you'll swim.
And I will drink myself to death.

Momentarily I kind of have problems to cheer myself up and so I am not really in the mood to write or do anything and to care about this blog thing. According to this: let's listen to even more depressing music, like the beautiful Cat Power and her song "Ice Water".
And tomorrow there will be a new day and I will go out again, study and maybe buy some clothes to make myself feel brand-new. 2011 here I finally come!
(And that's what we call sarcasm.)

Samstag, 15. Januar 2011

Unknown II.

© shot and edited by Timo

My mother taught me to be frightened.
My father taught me how to be invisible.
Broken glass, dripping blood. I hear you scream.

My lover taught me to be brave, but I killed her with my fear.
Only mirrors watching me. I am the only one to blame.
Empty streets, crashing cars. I hear you scream.

Dienstag, 11. Januar 2011

Hello Conor Oberst.

And I sing and sing of awful things
The pleasure that my sadness brings.
(Haligh, Haligh, A Lie, Haligh)

I just heard of the most exciting news right now...On Feb 18th Bright Eyes are playing in Berlin. This friday will be the perfect ending for my week:
  • Feb 15th Azure Ray in Leipzig, Germany.
  • Feb 15th  The People's Key in Stores.
  • Feb 16th Tim Kasher in Lepzig, Germany.
  • Feb 18th Bright Eyes in Berlin, Germany.

Couldn't be better. Let's just hope I don't get sick or something. Happened to me before. 

Samstag, 8. Januar 2011

Let's call it pathetic.

How foolish of me to think I ever could fix myself while sribbling awkward poetry.
As if these wounds could ever heal themselves, as if I could ever remove the scars from my arms.
And as if she could ever take back all of her lies..
So I ripped my heart out, I cut my tongue off, I burned my eyes out. But her ghost still kept on chasing me. Soon I found out that it’s better being a skeleton, than being caught in this endless race.
And so all my friends left me…or was it me who left them?
Well, too bad that there’s no one here I could ask. Just me and my self-loathing reflection in the mirror.
And the little demon boy with his smiling face is still staring at me. I know, slowly I will disappear.

I found myself again in these dirty clubs, I once loved but now hate so much. The drinks are filling me up with empty laughter. I don’t fit here anymore. The darkest corner is where I’d chose to be. 
 Would you come with me and please get me another drink?
It’s just… I hate this place, I hate this crowd.
I guess you felt sorry for me and so you drove me home. We spent the night together, but in the morning I sent you away. I can’t even stand myself. My temperature just never drops.
I went to the river and drowned all of her dresses. I don’t want anything of hers anymore. And as I returned to the cave, I made myself, I found her message on my phone. She asks where I’ve been and how I am.
I decided to hide under my blanket, that feels like cold steel, and wait until the echos of her voice in my head will finally become silent.

© shot and edited by Timo

Freitag, 7. Januar 2011

Soap & Skin.

I search in snow, in vain
For your footsteps trail
I have to kiss them
With my scalding tears
Until I see the ground
(Extinguish Me)

I probably forgot to mention Soap&Skin in my Top5 Review of 2010.. Her amazing record “Lovetune for Vacuum” is dark, dramatic and devastating. She’s an artist from Austria. I’d describe her music, always in company with a dark sounding piano, as experimental.
So, I highly recommend her album. Here is her song “Spiracle”, one of my favorites on the album. 

Donnerstag, 6. Januar 2011


I don’t want to fight,
You want to defeat me.
Also I am already lost everytime I see you.
And so there is nothing left to do for me.
I tried to make myself feel better, the stones were much too heavy to lift.
And so I just lie around here and wait for nothing to come.
I tried to move my arms to make an perfect angel in the snow for you.
But I got too nervous with all these starving eyes watching me.
So don’t you look at me. Because there is nothing you will ever find.
Just the cracks on my face, just the weight on my shoulders.
And all those sad sad songs, I can connect with too easily, with these voices telling me terrible things and wrapped in such a perfect melody. 
I got my cheap wine here beside me to fill my brain and to blind my eyes. And this is all I ever need from now on.
When there are no friends left I will find comfort in my own drunken stutter.
And I will finally become one with the falling leaves. I will find myself in a dying dream, so simple and true, that there will be no place for you.
But in my head you will always stumble around as the liar you have been.

Montag, 3. Januar 2011